Copy of her personal blog (in case it goes down due to high traffic):
About me:
My number 1 Belief: HAPPINESS IS ONLY DEPENDENT UPON CIRCUMSTANCE IF YOU ALLOW IT TO BE Some would say that I have a hippie mentality. I am happy all the time and I love it! I don't believe in fighting or even arguing for that matter, every problem can be resolved with the right conversation (unless you're a moron). See what I mean?SMILE :)
I USED TO BE A MODEL... PLEASE READ ON: I don't do that anymore (in fact, I am absolutely against it).... please let me explain. I used to do nude modeling between the ages of 18-19. Going into it, at first I believed it would be great. My thinking was ' I'll have enough money to pay for school & attend full time without having to work too many days a week & concentrate fully on my education". It started out as a once in a while thing & then I was duped into signing a contract. I was completely taken advantage of (I feel) based on my age & ability to be easily influnenced & lack of ability of good judgement. Promises from people who acted liked they cared for me, but really wanted me to make them money and didin't give an F about me. I became locked into affiliation with a completely negative, evil industry. Just so you don't get me wrong, I NEVER comprimised my morals -morals of that time that is, I realize that's a funny word to use for this topic - That meant no males in pics Ever, no mastubation stuff, NOTHING dirty. As expected, I made a ridiculously large amount of money and I became the second most popular softcore ameture gal on the internet... which was MUCH more exposure than I'd expected & wanted. Alot of money was made & I DID get to pay for school. However, as time went on I grew up a bit as my eyes were opened. Let me put it this way: It was as though used to be standing behind a closed door. The room I was in was the world I knew of where everything was familiar (as in what was expected). I knew what was needed to succeed in this concrete world, which was money (looking back...ha!). Ignorantly I truely believed if I had money, nothing could ever happen to make me feel bad or sad. I saw this as a way to make lots of it and "the room" I was in approved of it, enthusiastically. Then one day at a visit to Montezume's Castle (in Verde Valley) my perspective of life changed. (I can go on about what actually happened there but that may take a while). Suddenly, this door that I never knew existed opened just a crack & I was able to peek out into the true world. I finally found out that there was no such thing as a 'real world'. I had been making so much money but felt the lowest I'd ever felt in my life! After that, I took up an interset in sprituality & to make an extremely long (probably already too long) story short, I HAPPILY walked away from modeling & all of the money that came along with it. I struggled for a while finacially afterwards, but I made it out just fine & have continued on a spritual journey of self-discovery & improvement. Each day I try to improve or learn at least one thing about myself. Now, I'm the happiest I've ever been. Regrets for modeling?.... No. I learned something I don't think I could have learned any other way. Sorry for making you read a whole book here, it's just many of you have said you'd recognized me & I wanted to explain this to you because I am who I say I am. I am an honest, motivated to succeed, nice person... not by ANY means the kind of person you'd expect to do what I did. Also, I'm still good friends with my old photographer (NIKO BIMINI on my friend's list). He's a cool guy (not your typical nudie photographer) & sometimes he takes pics of me for fun...non-nudie...maybe some a litte sexy i guess. One thing I did (and still do) LOVE was being in front of the camera, I'm a HAM for that ;) So if my pics on here look professonaly done, that's where they've come from. I'd like to add that I now (and have been) earn an honest living... I work two jobs. One as a Quality Analyst Manager for companies like Dell, Deiloitte & Tusch & many others. I also work at my dad's engraving shop ( I run the entire office & do some engraving) My work adds up to about 60-70 hours weekly. Plus, I'm back to school now at PVCC. I really hope after reading this you're open minded enough to accept all of it. If not, don't bother writing me...infact, lose my info. Now you know all about me.... Sincerely ~Lori
One more thing: Trust me, I know I LOOK YOUNG, but I AM TWENTY-ONE
